You LOVE like there's no tomorrow and you HATE till you can visualize the person ripped into two. The PAIN is so great till you feel blood gushing out from your side when the cold metal pierces right into your organs with no apologies.
You TRY your best to balance your love and hate but to only FAIL and feel utterly USELESS.
SELF EFFORT is FUTILE and you have fallen from GRACE when you realize the HURT you have caused to the one you LOVE MOST.
You feel like DYING and the emotional PAIN is much greater than the physical pain. So much so that self mutilation is redundant and serves no purpose. So much so that you wish by injuring yourself can salvage the HURT you have inflicted onto the one you LOVE most.
You JUMP. You jump into this dark hole. SO LOST and SO CONDEMNED. Screaming but there's no voice. Crying, but there's no tears. Fresh dark blood continues to flow and soon your clothes are stained and wet. It's cold in the PAIN is getting more and more intense till you feel numb. You have forgotten how much wounds there are. As you jump mid way, you noticed a rope. Is it too late? You decided to grab hold of the rope, clinging on.
"I'm here!" A familiar voice calls out. A voice that is so calming and secure. A voice that makes your tears flow. A voice that gives you strength to find your own voice back. You see the familiar figure at the top of the hole.
"Help me! Pull me up!" You say. The person refuses to pull you up. Instead, the person JUMPED into the well together with you, as you stare with shock, in disbelief.
In the process, the person broke his ribs. The sharp concrete edges of the hole cause great damage to his skull, piercing through like a crown of thorns. His flesh torn off like stripes of flesh for the tigers. His blood gushed out. More profusely then yours. It kept on flowing like a river.
"What are you doing? Stop hurting yourself!" You say.
"I LOVE YOU." With that, he STRETCHED out his arms and DIED.
You realize that his blood has covered you. From the crown of your HEAD to the soles of your FEET. Suddenly, you do not feel the pain anymore. Still holding on to the rope, you turned round to check. Your wounds are GONE. You are HEALED! But you have not more strength left in you. You are so TIRED. SO, SO, TIRED. You give up. You had enough. You have NO CHOICE but to let go.
"Goodbye." With that, you release your rope. You thought you will plunge to your death. Only to find out that you have landed on ground. You were only inches away from the ground all this while. But because you refuse to let go, that caused your depletion of energy. You looked up and muttered to yourself that the opening is not that far after all. In fact, it is getting nearer and nearer! You feel light and BOLD. You feel energetic. What is happening?
This is when you realize that you are on the shoulders on the familiar figure! Not only is he not hurt, he is flawless and without blemished. He seemed..INVINCIBLE and there's this GLOW. This MIGHTY AURORA around him. He walked on air and walked his way up on reach the opening. He carried you and brought you to a lake and gives you food and water, because he thought you must be hungry and thirsty.
Still in amazement and finding it too good to be true, you wanted to ask if this was a dream. That is when you realize that it is not. It is reality. The wounds are still there. But you have been healed. You are not condemned. All the wrongs have been forgiven, PAST, PRESENT, and even FUTURE. You hug the familiar figure and ask, " I wanna return to be with you. Can I still love you again?"
He says," It is not your love for me, but MY LOVE FOR YOU."
And that marks the beginning of your new journey. A journey that is different. A journey that is PROTECTED in HIS BLOOD. From the crown of your head, to the soles of your feet. HIS BLOOD, from he who is PERFECT but took on flesh, to BLEED and to be hurt and to DIE for you.
And you rejoice. For he has been RESURRECTED. WHOLE and INVINCIBLE. And he did it JUST FOR YOU. Just because HE LOVES YOU.
What's His name? His name is Jesus Christ.
Be loved today!
PoshPearl
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